Most of the time I really don’t like this time of year (Winter and xmas). It is just really freaking depressing. Im really tired of seeing all these cheesy romantic commercials, they just remind me that I am still alone. The same goes for facebook. All that fills my feed is all my friends that are married and have kids. I feel like my whole life I have been waiting for the time to come when I would feel happy and it just hasn’t happened yet. I keep thinking that the next phase of my life I will finally find what I am desperately searching for. In high school I thought that time would come in college. In college I thought it would come when I got a job. Well all of that has happened and nothing. Still not happy and slightly depressed.
Maybe I need more friends, or just more single friends. Being alone sucks sometimes.
Anxiety really cramps my style like how am I going to seem chill and fun if I often start trembling and breathing heavily and developing a look of impending doom in my eyes
So today at work I learned that a lot of the staff thought that I have a boyfriend when I don’t. This started two months ago when we had our school carnival. I was working a booth with one of the volunteers from one of the local high schools and he happened to be a boy. A lot of people didn’t realize that he was a high school volunteer and assumed that he was my boyfriend. I’m 26, this kid was about 16 or 17. I know I look young but not that young?! So awkward.
Yeah, hello Tomkat…
Oh my gosh, seriously?
SERIOUSLY. I FREAKING LOVE YOU.
Aw, you’re too sweet! I think you are extremely cool yourself!
if i got reaped for the hunger games
- what district would i be from
- how would i die
- if i lived, how did i win
“There were times when what was going on in my personal life was so overwhelming that I had to bend over to let those tears fall straight out of my eyes and not my false lashes just as I’m about to go up on that ramp and sing Teenage Dream. I had to smack myself across the face and say, ‘These problems are my problems, they are not my audience’s problems, learn to separate that.’”
I am sick and its my final day off of work. Bright side is that I only have 3 weeks left till Christmas break!
do you ever get in one of those moods where you’re like feeling okay but you’re really sad at the same time and you just want to talk to someone and make them hug you but you feel annoying so you kind of just sit there being really sad
Let’ see what happens!
YES, YES SHE DOES.
YES, YES SHE DOES.